I Don't Want Any Part Of This

"It's hard to remember how it felt before, now I found the love of my life. Passes things get more comfortable, everything is going right. And after all the obstacles, it's good to see you now with someone else. And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends. After all that we've been through, I know we're cool. We used to think it was impossible, now you call me by my new last name. Memories seem like so long ago, time always kills the pain. And I'll be happy for you, if you can be happy for me. So far from where we've been, I know we're cool."

-Gwen Stefani

Like I Imagined...

"You sit there in your heartache, waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways. You play forgiveness. Watch it now, here he comes! He doesn't look a thing like Jesus, but he talks like a gentleman, like you imagined when you were young."

-The Killers

It Got Me Thinking About A Perfect Day

“Whatever you vividly imagine, ardently desire, sincerely believe, and enthusiastically act upon must inevitably come to pass.”

-Paul J. Meyer

Life Is Beauty. Own It.

 “To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

We All Have Stories We Will Never Tell. You Are My Dream

I have many regrets. But this morning, I woke up with one regret towering above the rest. I should have gone with you. I should have gotten up. I should have said yes. I should have held your hand. I am so sorry. I know you've forgotten. But I swear, I never will.

I held my pride like I should have held you. I hide behind it.

Like You

“I feel very adventurous. There are so many doors to be opened, and I'm not afraid to look behind them.”

-Elizabeth Taylor

There Is Simply Nothing Worse Than Knowing How It Ends

Weird past few days. I've got to take risks. I don't want to live in the dark. And you still lurk on the edges of my thoughts. Ew.

Oh Memories, Where Have You Gone?

"Ever since we met, I only shoot up with your perfume. It's the only thing that makes me feel as good as you do. Ever since we met, I've got just one regret to live through. And that one regret is you." -Panic at the Disco

It's you. It's always been you.

Day 10: One Affirmation

Last day, and I'm going to admit to one confession:

I dwell on memories and I live as if they were still true. My life is made up of memories and the present doesn't concern me. I should probably change that.

I've Lost You

You have completely changed. A complete 360. I don't know who you are anymore. I could blame them, but I guess this is just you. This is who you really are. I don't like it. But it's who you are. And it's definitely not what I'm looking for.

Day 9: Two Expressions

Two smileys describing my life. Here you go, loves.

:D

:O

Yeah, I don't know either.

Last Apology

I dreamt of you last night. It was lovely. You're lovely. I'm sorry.

Day 8: Three Yes-Pleases

Three turn-ons...hmm.

1. You're random messages make me feel important and on your mind.

2. The innocence of first love.

3. Your eyes.

Remembered

Jeff Buckley, you've inspired me in five minutes. A terrible death, a beautiful life. ♥
“I feel afraid and I call your name.
I love your voice and your dance insane.
I hear your words and I know your pain.”

-Jeff Buckley

"All flowers in time bend towards the sun, I know you say theres no one for you, but here is one.”

-Jeff Buckley

Day 7: Four No-No's

Four turn-offs...this should be easy.

1. You're an asshole. Somehow, in the world you live in, that's cool.

2. You push me away but reel me back in when you feel like it. I will never understand it, but that's okay to you.

3. You text me every day and get upset when I don't respond right away. I want a boy, not a puppy dog.

4. You're childish. Grow up, you're 16. Come on, you can do it.

Day 6: Five Influentials

Five people I could never live without are:

1. Kaitlyn

2. Ryan

3. Him

4. Mom

5. Dad

The basics...

Day 5: Six Regrets

I wish I had never:

1. not realized how much I cared.

2. taken the little times for granted. 

3. looked at all the imperfections.

4. texted you.

5. cut myself off.

6. wanted to be rid of everything.

Day 4: Seven Accidentals

Seven things crossing my mind are:

1. my future.

2. my past.

3. him.

4. mistakes I've made.

5. my dreams.

6. everything I wish you were.

7. everything you are.

Oh, Wah

I'm just so tired of people like you. While writing this, I don't have one person in mind, I have several. Not everything is about you. I swear, you'll learn one day.

Day 3: Looking For Love?

To win my heart:

1. don't pretend to be somebody you're not.

2. give my my space.

3. make me laugh.

4. make it easy for me to love you.

5. do not, ever, ever, ever, betray me.

6. be the person I can go to at any given moment.

7. help me through the hard times.

8. give me hope.

Feeling A Little...Unappreciated?

You know what? I just wish for once that everything I do was good enough. I am so tired of getting a pat on the back and then having my parents say, "Yeah, great job. But hey, how come this isn't this way? How come you're not in this class? That's bullshit. How come you didn't do this? You should really get started on that." I just feel like I'm screaming SHUTUP to them but they can't hear. I can't handle the pressure and I can't handle them. I'm near breaking point. Hold on, it's a bumpy ride. Great job. Good Job. Nice. You can do better.

"And all the while I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs and nobody even looks up." -From The Titanic

It Ended Just Fine

"We all want to know, how it ends. Oh, happily ever after, wouldn't you know, wouldn't you know. Oh, skip to the ending, who'd like to know? I'd like to know. Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up, do I end up happy? We all have a story to tell, whether we whisper or yell."

Day 2: About Me

1. I am afraid of most everything.

2. I love my room, my safe haven.

3. I feel most comfortable, well, by myself.

4. I must be successful, that's right, must.

5. I love dreams.

6. I believe everything has a purpose and meaning: dreams, seemingly insignificant choices...

7. I despise discrimination.

8. I love originality.

9. Drama/drama queens make me tired.

Day 1: Ten Acknowledgments

1. Kaitlyn: He's not worth it; he's ugly, he's fat. Move on, love.
2. Mom: Shutup, just for two seconds. Thank you.
3. Jack: One of these days...it's going to hit you.
4. Taylor Swift: How do you know what I'm feeling every single time an album comes out? Just curious.
5. You: I still think about you, well, the old you. Why? No idea.
6. Kirsten: I miss you.
7. Kate: You're so god damn dumb, I swear.
8. Me: Just admit it. I know it already. But they don't.
9. Hope: You broke me apart.
10. Love: You're the fakest person I've ever met.

Whatever It Takes

“We are driven by five genetic needs: survival, love and belonging, power, freedom, and fun.”
-William Glasser

Summer :)

Nothing's Gonna Change

"Breakdown, rebound; this could be my last goodbye. You cross your heart, I hope to die. And I can't deny your eyes, you know I try to read between the lines. I saw a warning sign and then you threw me up against the wall. Who said that it's better to have loved and lost? I wish that I had never loved at all."

Repetitive Tendencies

I need to dream again. I need to see hope in the simple things: the sun, the moon, the stars. But not you. I find them more perfect than you. You just hurt, and hurt, and hurt...

Goodbye, My Love

"Subtract any possibility of me. Dont ask cause I don't know the answers. And I'm hanging up the phone. It's over, goodbye. And you grow, and you grow, and you grow stronger from your past."

Wake Up, Wake Up Dreaming

 "It was a crime at the time. But the laws, we changed them."

"We started out like the perfect story on the heels of a beautiful lie, didn't know you were holding a secret aside. I used to be the one with all the glory standing like a soldier on the front line, till you came and stripped me of all of my pride."

No Words

"Since you been away, I'm just a face in the crowd. Someday, someday I know you're coming back."

God, this sucks.

Till Death Has Torn Us Apart

Could this take any longer or are you afraid in a little bit of love and emotion that comes your way? Getting sick and tired of holding this feeling inside so gotta find a better way to relieve it or it’s eating me alive, I said it’s eating me alive. You gotta stop over-thinking everything, release your mind. All of this, well it won’t mean anything in ten years time. Take your walls and burn ’em down, let’s turn your world around cause I’m just not ready to move on.