It's Over, There's No One To Blame

He can't see the smile I'm faking and my heart's not breaking, cause I'm not feeling anything at all. And you were wild and crazy, just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated. Got away by some mistake and now I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain. It's 2 AM and I'm cursing your name.  I'm so in love that I acted insane, and that's the way I loved you. Breaking down and coming undone, it's a roller coaster kind of rush. I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I loved you.

I Wanna Know Why You Got Me Going

I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.

Your Boomerang. Wanna Play?

Dreams, that's where I have to go to see your beautiful face anymore. I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio, hope there's a conversation. We both admit we had it good, but until then it's alienation, I know. That much is understood.
And I realize if you ask me how I'm doing, I would say I'm doing just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind. No matter what I say I'm not over you.

And if I had the chance to renew, you know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do. I could get back on the right track, but only if you'd be convinced.

Irrevocable

I want to be the only one left when your day is done. I can't have you close, so I become a ghost and I watch you. I watch you. Maybe if you stay, we could die this way. But I won't stop you. I won't stop you.

How long till your surrender to me?

Falling. Apart.

Do you know how it feels to let go of someone you really love for a long time

just for them to be happy?

This Woman's Worth

"And I know you get tired of hearing it, but I still feel him around you...And they'll rub it in his face that you'll be going away for college. And he's thinking, 'Wow, she really is leaving.' And it bothers him. It hurts him."

All the things that we should've said but we never said. All the things we should've done but we never did. All the things I should've done but I didn't.

"I feel like he's checked up on you...recently."

Speechless. Oh, the pain. Unwavering hope.

Lingering

I never said I'd lie and wait forever. If I did we'd be together. I can't always just forget you, but he could try. And all the things that you never ever told me, and all the smiles that are ever, ever...

Why Can't You Ever See What's In Front Of You?

"He's still in there, you just have to break through."

"Fight for it or you will lose me forever. I won't love a ghost for the rest of my life."

You're Right, Perspective

You might feel worthless to one person, but you are priceless to another.

"Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it."

"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."

Make it go away.

Pomozi Mi Da Zaboravimo

I know you have a little life in you yet. I know you have a lot of strength left. I know you have a little life in you yet. I know you have a lot of strength left.
I should be crying but I just can't let it show. I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking of  all the things we should've said that I never said. All the things we should have done but we never did. All the things we should've given but I didn't.
Oh, my darling, make it go away. Give me these moments, give them back to me. Give me that little kiss, give me your hand.
I can't stop thinking of all the things we should've said that we never said, all the things we should've done that we never did. All the things that you wanted from me, all the things that that you needed from me. All the things I should have given but I didn't.
Oh, darling, make it go away. Just make it go away now.

My Empire of Dirt

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real. Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything. Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear. You are someone else, I am still right here.
If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself. I would find a way.
What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I know goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down. I will make you hurt.

Fair Warning

As I fall a thousand miles an hour, downward, not a chokehold. I guess it's true, words have power. I guess what I said left a taste so sour in your mouth you wanted me to see what life’s like without you.
I don’t know why he's with me, I only brought him trouble since the day he met me. If I was him, by now, I would’ve left me. I woulda walked away. Cause when you're in too deep, you wake up and it’s too late; you're falling in love in the worst way. And if you don’t go now, then you stay. Cause I’ll never let you leave, never let you breathe. Cause if you're looking for heaven, baby, it sure as hell ain't me.

I'll Love You For A Thousand More

Empty Words

Heart beats fast, colors and promises. How  to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall? But watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.
I have died everyday waiting for you. Darling, don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years. I'll love you for a thousand more.
Time stands still. Beauty in all she is. I will be brave, I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me. Every breath, every hour has come to this.
And all along I believed I would find you. Time has brought your heart to me. I have loved you for a thousand years. I'll love you for a thousand more.

So When You Get The Chance, Shut The Fuck Up

Do you know what it's like to cry and wish someone could hear you? To wish someone would care, even if they could hear? Of course not. Because you moan and whine where everyone has no choice but to hear. So sorry if I'm being short with you, I only have the weight of the rest of my fucking life resting on my shoulders this year. Pardon me for being less than bubbly. Excuse the sarcasm and pessimism, I just fucking hate you.

Even The Best Fall Down Sometime

I'm falling apart. This is my life and I can't fuck it up. Or I will never get anywhere.

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?

Settling

The important things are the ones I will always hold dear. The simple things made my life. You were a huge contribution. And I thank you for that. I guess you were there when I needed you in my life most. And that's all I can ask of you. So thank you, so much, for gracing my life with your smile. You changed me. You made me who I am today. And that's so much more than I ever expected.

Impairments

"I can honestly say you've been on my mind since I woke up today."

"Love has a vision problem: it does not see faults."

"Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting."

But I have to.

Wringing My Own Neck

"You've done nothing at all to make me love you less."

Quite the opposite, actually.

Goodbye, little girl. There are only two of us left. I no longer know you.

You are nothing.

"Thank God I found the good in goodbye."

Useless.

I give up. You win. I've officially lost you. The little girl I used to play with. The innocent and damaged teenager I used to confide in. I don't confide in anybody. You don't get it, do you? You've fucked me over so many god damn times. And I hate you for it. I can't ever forgive you. But I'm done. I'm tired of protecting her from you. But I will. Until I leave. And you'll still be here! The worst part isn't that you're a whore, selfish, or even completely disappointing, but that I needed you. I still do. And you're never fucking there. And I can deal with that in the only way I know how: cutting you out. I'm not going to pretend like this is okay. Because it's not. I'm not like that side of the family and you are. I can't sweep everything under the rug and pretend nothing is there. My goal is for people to look at us and think we're polar opposites. And so far I've achieved that goal. But don't you think for one minute that anything about the way you're acting is okay. I've wanted nothing more than an older sister. And I haven't had one since freshman year. You're dead to me. I give up. You win.

Longing

Back in '08, I met a brown-eyed boy who called me pretty. He'd walk every day, couple miles out of his way to hold my hand and keep me company. They all said "Don't call it love at 14."
But he gave me his picture in a locket that I wore around my neck. Left it right beside my heart so I would not forget the way it felt when he held my hand. And I swore that I would never take it off. And the butterflies I felt said it all. I was falling for the boy inside my locket.
But standing in the pouring rain, I cried as I watched him ride away. But everyday, I had his picture in a locket that I wore around my neck. Left it right beside my heart so I would not forget the way his kiss tasted on my lips. And everyday felt like a lifetime with him gone, and I prayed that God would bring him safely home. Cause I made a promise to the boy inside my locket.

Only a few years we had together, but he's been gone for a couple now. And it breaks my heart to struggle to remember. But I've been writing all my memories down.

Life Means So Little Without You

I get this feeling every year, the first days of winter. Pull out that box of souvenirs, to read your old letters. In a stack of memories, found a note you left for me. It almost feels like you're still here.
I hear your voice in every word, you told me to remember. Makes me smile when I look back to every summer.
Take each day and make it last, cause you turn around and the future is the past. Here and now is all we have. The beginning and the end mean so little, what matters most is what's in the middle.

Painful Truths

"I owe you everything because through all of this you are the one thing that has kept me from giving up, from me turning it all off."

Head In The Rafters

Stop me on the corner. I swear you hit me like a vision I wasn’t expecting. But who am I to tell fate where it’s supposed to go with it? Don’t you blink, you might miss it. See we got a right to just love it or leave it. You find it and keep it cause it ain’t every day you get the chance to say: This is how it starts, lighting strikes the heart. It goes off like a gun, brighter than the sun. It could be the stars, falling from the sky, shining how we want, brighter than the sun.

Can You Whisper?

We're only young and naive still. We require certain skills. The mood it changes like the wind, hard to control when it begins.
Can't help myself but count the flaws, claw my way out through these walls. One temporary escape, feel it start to permeate.
We lie beneath the stars at night, our hands gripping each other tight. You keep my secrets, hope to die. Promises, swear them to the sky.
As it withers, brittle it shakes. Can you whisper? As it crumbles and breaks, as you shiver. Count up all your mistakes. Pair of forgivers, let go before it's too late. Can you whisper?
The bittersweet between my teeth, trying to find the in-betweens. Fall back in love eventually.

Seeing is Believing, Believing is Freedom

"Sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."

-Lewis Carroll

"You mean impossible?" "No, impassable. Nothing is impossible."

Oh dear, everything is so confusing here.

Off With Your Head

Tweedle Dee, Tweedle Dum. Dum. Dumb.

Little girl, what will it take?

You're getting curiouser and curiouser.

Good luck, I'm not leading you ever again.

You're no Alice anymore, grow up.

The Tiniest of Concerns

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, young and old: lend me your ear. In the center of the room, is the most oblivious of creatures, the arrogant, the young, the selfishly bold. I give you...THE KAITLYN!

Watch out, folks. She'll fuck you over and treat you like shit! Hold on to your wallets!

She's stealthy, folks, but so god damn stupid!

Hope you're prepared, she won't be leaving for a long, long, time!

I Swear To God It Was The Best Night Of My Life

"I miss your soft lips, I miss your white sheets. I miss the scratch of your unshaved face on my cheek. And this is so hard cause I didn't see that you were the love of my life and it kills me.
I see your face in strangers on the street. I still say your name when I'm talking in my sleep. And in the limelight, I play it off fine. But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.
They say that true love hurts, well, this could almost kill me. Young love murder, that is what this must be. I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.
The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed. Young love murder, that is what this must be. I would give it all to not be sleeping alone. We promised that this would last forever but now I see.
It was my past life, a beautiful time. Drunk off of nothing but each other until the sunrise.
They say that true love hurts, well, this could almost kill me."

They saw you today. And I knew that when they got home I would creep around, wondering...wondering. And I did. And they talked immediately about you. Did they know that that's what I cared about most? Probably. God dammit, I loved you. I love you. And I can't ever have you again. And it hurts so fucking bad! And that's why I can't like a guy for too long. That's why when someone shows interest I push them away, far away. That's why I still look at your picture. That's why I still dream and think of you. But you're fading away. I can barely remember us. But I can't forget you! You were my everything. Why the fuck do I still care? It's not that I get jealous if I see you with a girl, or that I cry for you, or even that I'm waiting for the day when you will ask me out again. I just can't love anyone else like I loved you. Because I still care for you. And I put myself out there. And I got hurt. Bad. And I don't easily love. So I'm so fucking sorry for what I did to you. I really am. And I'm so fucking sorry that it doesn't even matter. And I wish you were here, and I wish I could see you one more time. I feel like we're not done yet and that's why I haven't completely given up. But I'll have to and soon. I'm sorry, I need you. I can't have you. And you're my past, present, but I don't know about my future. You're my 11:11 wish, all the time. Just to see you, just to hold you. I miss you. You were so fucking important to me. You still are. And it's all my fault. And I will never be able to tell you just how much I regret all of those lies. And I'm sorry. And I hate myself for it. 

I Want Your Love

J'veux ton amour. I don't wanna be friends!

Gotta Face The Fact That I Can't Walk Away

The last words that I said, well, that was nothing but a broken heart talking, baby. You know that wasn't what I meant. Call me up, let me know that you got this message I'm leaving for you. Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to.

I hope you find it, whatever it is out there that you were missing here.

Our Fingerprints Don't Fade From The Lives We've Touched

And you've grabbed my life, shook it upside down, and handed it back.

No, I'd Never Make It Through Without You Around

"I'm afraid of changing cause I built my life around you." -Stevie Nicks

You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go.

Sometimes We Change Our Mind, But It's Killing Me To See You Go

You took my hand, you showed me how. You promised me you'd be around. I took your words and I believed in everything you said to me.
If someone said three years from now you'd be long gone, I'd stand up and punch them out cause they're all wrong. I know better, cause you said forever and ever. Who knew?
Remember when we were such fools and so convinced and just too cool? I wish I could touch you again. I wish I could still call you friend. I'd give anything.
When someone said count your blessings now before they're long gone, I guess I just didn't know how. I was all wrong. They knew better, still you said forever and ever. Who knew?
I'll keep you locked in my head until we meet again. And I won't forget you, my friend. What happened?
If someone said three years from now you'd be long gone, I'd stand up and punch them out cause they're all wrong. And that last kiss, I'll cherish until we meet again. And time makes it harder. I wish I could remember. But I keep your memory, you visit me in my sleep.
My darling, who knew? My darling, I miss you.

And The Fight For You Is All I've Ever Known

Amante smemorato, il mio amante preferito. Non fatemi essere dimenticato. Amante smemorato. Vi sto a chiedere l'elemosina voi.

Forgive me if I'm young, for speaking out of turn. But there's someone I've been missing. I think that they could be the better half of me.

I Think You Should Know...

Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection. Like an apple hanging from a tree, I picked the ripest one. I still got the seed. You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know.

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you. What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night. Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes.
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter. Like a hard candy with a surprise center. How do I get better once I've had the best? You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test.
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth. He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself.
You're the best and yes, I do regret, how I could let myself let you go. Now the lesson's learned, I touched it I was burned.

I think you should know, I wish that I was looking into your eyes. Won't you walk through and bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.