Monday, October 31, 2011

It's Over, There's No One To Blame

He can't see the smile I'm faking and my heart's not breaking, cause I'm not feeling anything at all. And you were wild and crazy, just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated. Got away by some mistake and now I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain. It's 2 AM and I'm cursing your name.  I'm so in love that I acted insane, and that's the way I loved you. Breaking down and coming undone, it's a roller coaster kind of rush. I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I loved you.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

I Wanna Know Why You Got Me Going

I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.

Your Boomerang. Wanna Play?

Dreams, that's where I have to go to see your beautiful face anymore. I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio, hope there's a conversation. We both admit we had it good, but until then it's alienation, I know. That much is understood.
And I realize if you ask me how I'm doing, I would say I'm doing just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind. No matter what I say I'm not over you.

And if I had the chance to renew, you know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do. I could get back on the right track, but only if you'd be convinced.

Irrevocable

I want to be the only one left when your day is done. I can't have you close, so I become a ghost and I watch you. I watch you. Maybe if you stay, we could die this way. But I won't stop you. I won't stop you.
How long till your surrender to me?

Friday, October 28, 2011

Falling. Apart.

Do you know how it feels to let go of someone you really love for a long time
just for them to be happy?

This Woman's Worth

"And I know you get tired of hearing it, but I still feel him around you...And they'll rub it in his face that you'll be going away for college. And he's thinking, 'Wow, she really is leaving.' And it bothers him. It hurts him."
All the things that we should've said but we never said. All the things we should've done but we never did. All the things I should've done but I didn't.
"I feel like he's checked up on you...recently."
Speechless. Oh, the pain. Unwavering hope.

Lingering

I never said I'd lie and wait forever. If I did we'd be together. I can't always just forget you, but he could try. And all the things that you never ever told me, and all the smiles that are ever, ever...