Too Damaged To Be Whole Again

Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks. It's just the boy that played me left a couple cracks.

Undying Dedication

I've waited a hundred years, but I'd wait a million more for you. Nothing prepared me for what the privilege of being yours would do. If I had only felt the warmth within your touch. If I had only felt how you smile when you blush or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough. I would've known what I've been living for all along. Your love is my turning page, where only the sweetest words remain. Every kiss is a cursive line. Every touch is a redefining phrase. I surrender who I've been for who you are, nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart. If I had only felt how it feels to be yours, I would've known what I've been living for. Though we're tethered to the story we must tell, when I saw you I knew we'd tell it well. With a whisper, we will tame the vicious seas. Like a feather, bringing kingdoms to their knees.

Forget It Already

Can't deny that I want you but I'll lie if I have to.

I like to be reminded of things I can't have, so come around again.

Give me a second, I need to get my story straight. My friends are in the bathroom getting higher than the Empire State. And I know I gave it to you months ago, I know you're trying to forget. But between the drinks and subtle things, the holes in my apologies: you know I'm trying hard to take it back. Now I know that I'm not all that you got. I guess that I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart.

Have I Ever Given Up Without A Reason?

Looking out from underneath, fractured moonlight on the sea. Reflections still look the same to me as before I went under. And it's peaceful in the deep, cathedral where you cannot breathe. No need to pray, no need to speak. Now I am under. And it's breaking over me. A thousand miles onto the sea bed, found the place to rest my head.

Never let me go, never let me go. And the arms of the ocean are carrying me. And all this devotion was rushing out of me. And the crashes are heaven, for a sinner like me. The arms of the ocean deliver me.

Though the pressure's hard to take, it's the only way I can escape. It seems a heavy choice to make, now I am under. Never let me go, never let me go. And it's over, and I'm going under. But I'm not giving up! I'm just giving in. Oh, slipping underneath. Oh, so cold, but so sweet.

In the arms of the ocean, so sweet and so cold. And all this devotion I never knew at all, and the crashes are Heaven for a sinner released. And the arms of the ocean

deliver me. Never let me go, never let me go.

Take Me To Another World

Oh dear, I do tire of your games.

I'm not gonna worry about it. Yeah, it's no big deal.

And you. Only you.

I'll never stop.

So let me know, okay?

You Lift Me Up

We wade through the water together, in our element. The crab and the fish. The fish and the crab. When we wash up on the shore, we gasp for air. Not because we can't breathe, but because of the intense happiness that we feel. I laugh once. Just a short laugh. I had believed that we would never hold each other again. And here we are, as if nothing has changed. You stroke my hair away from my face. The damp strands cling to my face anyway. I close my eyes just for a moment. I can feel the drops on my lashes. They're heavy. A cool breeze blows the drops off of my face. Your breath is like a spring breeze, a typhoon, a hurricane. It calms me. It intrigues me. It destroys me. But what would I do if I was never able to feel your breath again?

It's Repulsion, I Think

I'm in the sinking boat with you once again. Except this time, it's smaller. There's not much that will go down with us. I'm hurriedly tossing bucketfuls of water back into the sea. But you're just sitting there, telling me to go faster. "Help me!" I cry. But when was the last time you helped me? When was the last time you listened? When was the last time you held my hand and told me everything would work out? I can't recall. And this is no different. You cackle wildly and turn into someone I don't know. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Like the click of a switch. Click. Now your sobbing. Throwing your head over the side of the boat, trying to touch the raging waters. But you're not strong enough. "I'm so sorry!" You wail. "I have them but I've lost you!" I don't even deny it. "Yes, you have. But a long time ago. Think of this as just proving my point. This is why I'm gone." You switch again. Who are you? "Madeleine, Madeleine. I'm fine." You slur. Right. You look it. I toss the bucket back into the water. It's useless. You're sinking fast. "Don't talk to me." I spit. "Fine! You bitch! You're the worst sister ever!" No. I'm afraid you take that prize. Now if you'll excuse me, I've got a little girl to attend to. "I'll never speak to you again!" You screech. "Promise?" My tone is unforgiving. I prepare to dive in the water and swim to my larger, better equipped boat. Because I can handle swimming these waters. She can't. Because my boat no longer has the ability to float towards hers to pick her up when she's about to sink again. I dive in the water. Click. "No, don't leave me! Come back!" You wail again. "I'll come back." I say. But I'm not sure if I will. "You promise?" She yells hysterically. "Yeah, I promise." But life is full of empty promises. You've given me plenty. Here's one of my own: I'll always be there for you.