Someone To Balance My Imperfections

I'm not waiting for you anymore. I'm not waiting for just anybody. I'm waiting for someone who can light up my world. A lot like you used to, as a matter of fact. I want someone who puts a smile on my face, someone I can be proud of. Someone who shines when I'm fading. Someone who beams when I'm tearing up. Someone to say the right words when I'm speechless. Someone to see the beauty in myself when I feel internally disgusted. Someone who can appreciate my faults when I'm down in the dirt. I need someone who can laugh at a crossroads when I'm wringing my hands in fear. You see, I won't settle for just anyone. I thought you fit my descriptions, but in reality, I just created a new list of qualities that you automatically fit. I wish you the best. I hope you are happy. I hope I can be, too.

Light Up The Darkness

"The people who are trying to make this world worse are not taking the day off. Why should I?"

-Bob Marley

I'll Be Waiting

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”  
-Bob Marley

Contradictions

I am weakness, I am greatness. I'm anything you want me to be. I am wasted and I'll make this the anthem for a dying breed. See the light in the night when you're fading away? Trust in us, we're all that you've got these days. Take a look inside my heart. Let's get carried away. I am selfless, I am selfish.
I'm anything that I want to be. This is violent, this is honest. It's the anthem for a dying breed. Don't you dare, don't you ever give up on us, my dear.

Off The Edge

Cold as ice and more bitter than a December winter night. That's how I treated you. And I know that I sometimes tend to lose my temper and I cross the line. I know it gets hard sometimes, but I could never leave your side, no matter what I say. All along I tried to pretend it didn't matter if I was alone. But deep down I know if you were gone for even a day I wouldn't know which way to turn. Cause I'm lost without you. I get kind of dark, let it go too far. I can be obnoxious at times, but try and see my heart. Cause I need you need now, so don't let me down. You're the only thing in this world I would die without. Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now, but I really need you near me to keep my mind off the edge. If I wanted to leave I would have left by now, but you're the only one that knows me better than I know myself.

Need To Be Near You

If you were here beside me instead of in New York...If the curve of you was curved on me, I’d tell you that I loved you before I even knew you, cause I loved the simple thought of you. If our hearts are never broken and there’s no joy in the mending, there’s so much this hurt can teach us both. Though there’s distance and there’s silence, your words have never left me. They’re the prayer that I say every day. Come on, come out, come here, come here. The lone neon nights and the ache of the ocean and the fire that was starting to spark: I miss it all, from the love to the lightning. And the lack of it snaps me in two. Just give me a sign, there’s an end and not beginning to this quiet chaos driving me mad. The lone neon nights and the voice of the ocean and the fire that was starting to go out.

Just A Proposition

When life gets unfair, strangle it.

You can't change what's already happened, but you can make it better.

If you want something, go after it. It's meant to be chased.

Chances are they caught your eye for a reason, learn why.

You can't believe in a higher power if you haven't seen the light of day.

Stop waiting for change. Turn in a new direction: a sketchy alleyway, a lit up path, a leaf-strewn dirt road...you never know what will turn up midway.

What happens at the end is always worth it.

Don't live with regrets. Love always, not when it's too late. Don't decide he's the one after he's given you up for a lost cause.

When troubled, look within yourself. There's a hell of a lot of advice just waiting to be spilled out.