It Isn't Safe.

I'm wishing for your text more than for his. I smiled when your name came on my phone and I had little butterflies, just as I used to with him. I am wondering what that means and am terrified of what I thinks it means. I both want you and don't want you and I'm still wondering how that can be. I love you, you know this. How could you not? But I'm afraid that I love you more. More than I should. More than as my best friend. As much as I can.